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i re-wrote 'after all this time'

i kinda like the way it flows better...here, what do you think?

all this time

I want to see you grovel
crawl back on your knees
tears pouring from your eyes
blood pouring from your mouth
calling my name to save you
from yourself and regret

I want you to cringe
when you hear my name
when you hear about something
that I didn’t want you there for
when you hear about how happy I am
now that I’m living with out you

but how can I be jealous after all this time
think about how you were once mine
I don’t need you or want you
but I want to see you suffer
and I need you to want me
and I would love you to hate me
but I want you to love me
at the same time
after all this time

I want you to live your life
and cry everyday and night
regretting every day I’m not there
and kicking your own ass
when you look in the mirror
thinking about how you messed up

I want to see you love me and
love me without any motive and
love me with no love in return and
love me till you can’t stand it
till you get sick to your stomach
every time you hear my name

but how can I be jealous after all this time
think about how you were once mine
I don’t need you or want you
but I want to see you suffer
and I need you to want me
and I would love you to hate me
but I want you to love me
all at the same time
after all this time

I want to see you hate me
with every ounce of love in your heart
to need me so desperately
to know that nothing matters
but the sound of my voice
ringing in your ears

I want you to suffer through life
the way I suffered before
to notice that I don’t notice
at all what your going through
believing that you was nothing
but my filthy little whore

I want you to see what I’m not saying
to read between the lines
to read around the lines
to know what I meant to say
and couldn’t and probably shouldn’t
but you still know what I’m thinking
after all this time

but how can I be jealous after all this time
think about how you were once mine
I don’t need you or want you
but I want to see you suffer
and I need you to want me
and I would love you to hate me
but I want you to love me
all at the same time
after all this time

I want you too see life the way I did
I want to see you beg
I want to see you disappear
I want to hear from all your friends
that your suffering
because of me
because of me
because of me
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